I am the middle one of 3 sisters, but I also have 3 older brothers making me the second to youngest. Out of my sisters I've I always be the more responsible and sensible one. I'm the only one to pass all my GCSE's, the only one with A-levels and the only one to go to uni. Now I don't want to think I'm taking any sort of high ground over my sisters because I'm not, in fact I'm fucking sick of it. It has made me the automatic dumping ground for all their shit and I've had enough.

My mum alienated all her friends when she separated from my Dad so now when she has a problem she calls me. I'm in the middle of my third and final year doing my dissertation. I struggle with stress enough as it so the last thing I need to know about is the fucking problems back home so I can sit in my room and worry my mind away hoping that everything is ok back home. It just isn't fair. It's not even like I can help either. I'm still a kid myself, and don't have the maturity, emotionally, to deal with the stuff.

Granted some of the stuff can be pretty minor sometimes but I'm a worrier by default and the smallest things stress me out.

Its just waring me down and I've HAD ENOUGH!

Sheesh been a while. Seems my laziness has struck yet again. Well gonna have to see if I can remedy that.

Quick update for now. now in full swing of my 3rd year of uni. Deep joy. Also means I'm up to my eyeballs in dissertation work.

And christmas is quickly approaching and my 21st. I hate having my birthday this time of year. I really want to do something for my birthday but I'm going to have to juggle it between working and go home to my two different homes on two different sides of the country whilst coming back to chester to work. ARGH!!!

Also here are some pictures I had done at this Double Take thing in Manchester. One lot is from August and the other is from September.

( August Pictures )


( September Pictures )

Because I have a sad lonely existence I have little else to do with my time then spend it on the internet. I spend a large majority of it either on gateworld or a website called Howrse.com. As I've always had a love for horses but never had the opportunity to have I get to kind of compensate with this. It's on online game where you breed, compete and care for horses.

There running a sponsorship contest at the moment, where players get people to join and get benefits for it. So I thought I would shamelessly plug it here because, lets face it, its nice to win things.

If you're interested simply follow this link
Then follow the instructions. When it comes to the sponsorship box my user should already be filled in.

Admittedly it is a little slow to begin with but it picks up after a while. If you do decide to join and need any help, drop me a line and I'll be more than happy to help. My user is the same there as it is here and gateworld. I'm easy to spot lol.

LOL I think by posting this I may have just reached a whole new level of sadness.

No doubt I'll be beaten anyway by all the cheaters that just makes multiple accounts.

OMG I can not believe I'm suppose to be 20 years old, is utterly ashamed. LOL

Ok well here are some pictures from my work placement a few weeks ago.

Of all times to get sick my body chooses now.

This has been the one week when I've been working during the week and wasn't able to because I'm ill. It's also the first time I've been properly ill whilst away from home. On top of that my house mates have now moved out so I'm home alone and I'm also in the process of moving rooms...and..... I'm all out of paracetamol and other helpful drugs and too poorly to go out and get more. Times like this I just want my mum to look after me.

It's that awful kind of illness too where you know your hungry and need to eat but you have absolutely zero appetite and zero energy to physically cook anything.

Plus Ernie needs cleaning out, and I'm supposed to be working tomorrow, not sure I'll be fit.

It started on monday and when I rang my mum on tuesday she assured me it would probably only last 48hrs. Clearly not true. It's friday and still going strong.

Life just isn't fair.

xx

PS lol check out the ever so nice emoticon thing for sick. lol.

I'm very aware I haven't posted for a while so this post can be a temporary gap filler. I wasn't able to post for 5 weeks as I was on my work placement which I will fill everyone in on later. Then after that I simply haven't mustered the energy to be bothered.

So to briefly update you all in the past 9 weeks I have:

• gutted rabbits
• stroked and had semi conversations with tigers, lions and leopards.
• tried mussels for the first time
• spent too much time around animal flesh then I care to mention
• fell in even more love with cats and didn't want to say goodbye
• decided that the WHF is the best place on the planet
• got a new dog, a boxer by the name of jesse
• got a bearded dragon (a desert dwelling lizard)
• found out I have to do resits (booooo!!!! hissssss!!!!)

and is currently suffering withdrawal from supernatural

...Leopards...oh my

Squee!! Leave for my placement on Sunday so only Saturday stands in my way and my last day of work for 5 weeks (well paid work anyway). Started packing but no where near finished yet. First things to go in my case were my Stargate DVD's and Supernatural. Ain't leaving without them especially if there's a good chance I wont have internet down there. So excited!!!! Will have lots and lots of piccies when I get to share will y'all.

On other news the glasses are now returned to having two arms and stay on face now. They put a new screw in for me but in the process stole my cloth I use to clean them. Damn thieves. Also made a mental note that I need to book an appointment when I get back seen as I've had these ones for two years now and they've already fallen apart twice.

A downer the new episodes of supernatural air in America while I'm away and with no internet I won't be able to see them. No idea when they air other here, all I know is it's way to long to wait. *sulks* Will have to have daily marathon dvd sessions to make up for it.

Also further note, noticed I need to do some serious updating with regards to Kylie, not that I'm sure anyone really cares about my insane ranting but it feels good to vent. And it makes me giggle when I read it back yet scared at the same time that I might actually be nuts.

Bye bye for now,
See you in May
xx

Good job I've finished my exams and I'm not working today. Woke up this morning, went to put my glasses on and the arm just fell right off. Luckily the screw was sitting next to it and hadn't fallen on the floor so now its just a matter of fixing it. Which will probably involve a trip to specsavers seen as I don't actually have any of those mini screwdrivers and even if I did wouldn't be able to see what I was doing anyway.

I'm convinced there must be a little gremlin or something that sneaks in and unscrews while I'm sleeping as they were perfectly fine last night. Its happened before and its quite annoying. Last time was a little more inconvenient however as I was about to head of to collectormania that morning.

So here I am typing away with wonky glasses balancing precariously on my nose. Don't think I'll have chance to get them fixed today so looks like a trip in to town is scheduled for tomorrow. Might see about getting some new ones whilst I'm there seen as I am due some new ones. Think a second pair would be a good idea too.

Had my last exam of the year today, whoop. Pretty sure I may have failed most of them but oh well. Next stop work placement, so excited.

Also my Stargate dvds arrived today. Bit of a surprise as I wasn't expecting them till tomorrow. This a first for amazon to not only be on time but to be early. Luckily my house mates were in as I was at the exam at the time. The box is pretty impressive, just a shame that the discs aren't arranged in a more, well, ordered order. Little difficult to pick out where one season ends and another begins.

Really need to go food shopping but just can't be bother. Need to make the effort though, otherwise I am going to starve tonight.

New Doctor Who rant: Loved the new episode on saturday, was amazing, but whats going on with the new time slot. I don't even get to watch it because I don't finish work till 7. Its just not on, not on I tell you. Stupid musical shows making me miss it. Couldn't give two monkeys who the next Nancy is.

I am doomed to be eternally skint because I can't seem to stop buying things. Seriously need to get this under control before I leave uni and that lovely no interest overdraft no longer exists.

Bought the big SG-1 box set today with all 10 series in it off amazon. Loking forward to it coming and having a wee bit of a marathon but it was quite expensive, and I really didn't hesitate no where near enough considering the price tag. It would appear the concept of money and how much things cost has left me completely. lol.

Mind you not all bad, I mean might as well while I still can, not like I'm tied down with a mortgage or anything yet.

Anyways, enough of this. Not really been up to much other than awful exams that I'm sure I'm gonna fail and not getting the supervisor I wanted for my dissertation. Oh well. On the plus side I have my work placement in two weeks and I'm so excited, I can't wait.
weeeee

Which is handy as 99% of the time I'm just too lazy to write anything.


Cats      

Horses

Dragons

Unicorns

Me and Jayden

Woohoo, when for an interview on Tuesday for a part time job at New Look and they rang me today to let me know I got it.

This is my first ever ever job and I'm really chuffed. Of course it helps that I love shopping in New Look any way and now get 50% staff discount.
Oh I'm so excited, can't wait to start.

Only one problem. I'm up in the mens department which is also where the ladies shoes are, and I have a major weakness for shoes. Gonna end up with a new pair every week lol.

Once a week as part of my course we go to an agricultural college near Nantwich called Reaseheath College. The lectures we have there are pretty average and nothing special but its the practicals that are truly special. We get to handle animals we wouldn't be able to anywhere else and is probably the highlight of the course. But recently it has gone down hill, we have been doing the same thing over and over again since September a year and a half ago. Now I have no problem with snakes and lizards but after the first few times it started to get a little tedious. But it appears they have finally stepped up their game, my gosh.

Today I got to hold a bird for the very first time. So you think they would start us off with something small like your average aviary bird or even a small owl, you know break us in gently. Nope, straight in with a Common Buzzard named Breeze. Was a little scary trying to remember the special knot we had just been taught to tie her to our glove but that was it. It was absolutely amazing and she was so beautiful. Next week apparently we will be flying some of the birds and I'm really looking forward to it. Its about time they gave us something new and exciting to do.

Amazing Reaseheath Firsts:

• Wrestled with a sheep
• Made like a human sheep dog and rounded those mothers up (lol)
• Walked a cow (yes much like you walk a dog)
• Watched piglets being born
• Herded some pigs
• Held lizards (bearded dragons and water dragons)
• Held snakes
• Fed a ring-tailed lemur
• Fed baby snakes
• Held various types newts and other amphibians
• Held a poison arrow frog
• Held a cockroach (ew)
• Held a millipede
• Held a Scorpion
• Held a Tarantulas (Chili Rose)
• Weighed and herded porcupines
• Met a tapir
• Met some giant African tortoises
• Held a Gecko
• Fed a Gecko (little nipper got my finger too by accident)
• Held a Buzzard

My sister had her baby on Sunday. A little boy, now named Jayden Sean, weighing 6lb 13 ounces. He is adorable. She went into labour at 3am that morning and he was born a 10.42pm that evening. Thats a long time to be in pain. Everything went well and she and baby came home yesterday afternoon. He is so adorable.

Normally with my nephews they tend to cry when I hold them, but not this time, nope, he just slept.

Piccies

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Had a Christmas party last night and it was amazing. Granted the house was a tip afterwards but amazing none the less. I went as an angel as it was fancy dress and angels are christmassy (clearly not an actual word). Also had some birthday cake seen as its my birthday on Christmas and I'm not going to see my house-mates again till the 14th of January. It was so nice because I didn't know they were going to do it, such a nice surprise.

On a slightly more traumatic note, I nearly couldn't go to the party as I had a very weird spell earlier in the day. I got really dizzy and hot and couldn't even stand up. A bit of water, some chocolate and a nice chilly breeze and I was fine again a few minutes later. Only thing I can think of is that it must be something to do with my low blood pressure and maybe I had low blood sugars or something but it kinda freaked me out a bit.

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xx

Off to do my work placement in April for 5 weeks so I thought I would post a link to the website of the place I'll be working at. I'm so excited.

Link here

Also changed the layout a bit, still needs some work, like I forgot how I managed to put a picture at the top on my last one, oh well.

xx

It dawned on me the other that although my wee sister isn't due till the 8th of January (a mere 3 and a bit weeks) the baby could actually arrive at any moment, which is very scary. Now I may have come to terms with my little sister being pregnant, but her being pregnant and her actually being a mum are two completely different things and I'm not sure if I'm actually ready to be an auntie again. But maybe that bit scarier is the fact that there is a good chance if she goes in to labour nearer the time that I'll be the only one in the house when the baby does decide to come. Will be interesting to see how I react. Now I imagine myself panicking but then again I could be a picture of calm. I just hope my mum manages to come and get her from work because I'm definitely not up for the task of actually delivering a baby.

In other news I'm on a mission to try and to keep my LJ up to date and maybe give it a new look, which I've no idea how to do. This plan might not work too well seen as I'll be going home soon which means zero internet access for a while but I will prevail.

Ooo, I managed to see the supernatural Xmas special this morning too, for lack of better words, it was awesome.

xx

Long time overdue but I've been busy and just not had the motivation to put this up. I'm gonna keep it brief seen as there are other things I need to get done too, like feeding myself.

Well this year did both days unlike last year and didn't go so early either. Didn't really do much on the Saturday other than wonder around for a bit and I bought a few Supernatural related items, however we were around when Jason Momoa was on a wonder and were at the stall next door when he was playing with light sabers. I must confess, I did have a bit of a fan girl moment even though Jason isn't even one of my favourites.

Sunday was a lot busier, we had to get a photo with Jason and one with James Marsters as well as fit in getting their autographs which was difficult considering the size of the queue for James. When we got there we were a bit panicked as we almost missed the Jason photos (stupid Sunday trams) but we made it, just, looking very wind swept. Managed to meet up with a few people who also frequent gateworld which was nice to actually meet them in person and also met up with Anna again who met there last year. It was good to see her again. Had a good chat with Alipeeps in the queue for James' photographs which like the one for his autograph was HUGE. James Marsters is such a sweet heart bless him, he was definitely the high light of the weekend.

I fear I have left the write up too late and can't really remember enough of the details to be accurate so I'm just gonna bang up the pictures and start crossing my fingers that maybe someone from Supernatural will be at the next one.

Jason Momoa, Me and my friend Louise
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James Marsters and Me (I really do not remember him putting his hand my head at all)
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Well as you may have guessed I'm not a happy bunny. Finally went to do a proper food shop to day seen as I haven't done yet since moving in. Piled my trolley high only to get to the check out and discover my bank card was no where to be seen. Luckily one of my house mates offered to pay for it for me and then I pay her back. Didn't think too much about just thought I had left it in my other bag from when I went out, got home, and you guessed it, IT WASN'T! This is first time I'd lost my card an seen as it is now two days after I last used I was really worried. I must have lost on a night out or something. Luckily I don't think anyone has used it and it is now canceled but I'm still fed up and really annoyed I lost it. Feeling the need to eat a lot of chocolate right now.

Where, oh where do I begin.

Its been quite a while since I last posted and I have to say, to my own surprise, a lot has gone on since then. But to be honest I probably won't remember half of it while I'm typing this and miss it out completely but oh well.

O.k. well first of all I've enter an  entirely new mind set I have to say and it may not be an entirely healthy one. Due to certain events at the end of my first year of university I have developed pretty much a fuck you attitude with regards to certain people who I don't exactly consider friends anymore. I'll not go into details because that would be bitchy and I'm a bigger person than that. I just don't see the point making effort to maintain friendships with people who clearly don't give a flying fuck about you or any person that is not themselves, it's just not what I need in my life anymore, sure I lose a couple friend but there more fish in the sea and a lot nicer ones at that.

Anyway, ended up doing a last minute dash in my last week to find somewhere to live this year because I was yet again actually relying on other people (how dare I be so stupid as to trust someone). But it worked out for the best as I'm staying with some awesome people this year and I get on with them really well, and "huz-zar" they are actually genuinely considerate people, talk about a system shock.

Then in august I got to go do my big cat experience (can't remember if I mentioned it yet) and it was absolutely amazing. I got to stroke a lion and had my fingers up in his mane and everything. Got to feed tigers, a cheetah and a couple of snow leopards. The snow leopards were amazing, when you put your hand flat on the bars they rubbed there head along it just like a normal cat does. One of them even licked my hand (maybe it thought it was lunch lol). Well I liked it so much there I'm going back in april to do my work placement. I'll have to remember to take lots of pictures and maybe steal a bit of lions mane because apparently domestic cats go mad for it.
(pictures posted below)

Ok well then there was obviously moving into my new house but I've kinda already mentioned that so there's no point going into it too much other than they are all awesome.

Halloween has rolled around again and it was amazing. This time we just had a house party and it rocked. Basically just involved us all getting really pissed, a few cheesy halloween tunes and lots of plain cheesy songs just for the hell of, and a very soggy dirty carpet in the morning lol. It was so good mostly because for me it was a lot cheaper than going out (except for the clothes shopping I had done earlier that day for the night but what do you expect Im a girl and I do have a thing for shoes) and it was just as fun if not more.

On a kinda weird note because its both good and bad. My sister is pregnant which is amazing, the bad side is she's only 17 and she's my little baby sister, so I feel incredibly bizarre about the whole thing. Mostly Im just praying for a niece at the moment, don't think I can cope with another nephew. lol.

Ooo, what else is there, oh well told you I would forget. lol. Oh well that will do for now I suppose.

(pictures below)

EDIT: I knew I missed something. Me and Louise are planning on going collectormania again so should be awesome. I asked Lianne if she wanted to come to but she's skint poor love, oh well. Joe Flanigan won't be there but Im not really bothered because there's some other cool people going like James Marsters (spike from buffy) and some others but im not going into it. xx

Halloween
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Bday 06
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Big Cat Experience
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xxx